Guess who's still alive?
It's been a very, very long time since I submitted my art, I almost forgot how to use this site...It's all changed from the last time I went here!! Man, seems like I'm visiting DA for the first time. It's a very weird feeling coming back after so long, like you slept for months and when you wake up, all around you is completely different from what you remembered: new people, new places...You still consider all of this as a part of your life, and yet you feel alienated, thrown all of a sudden into something you know you have memories of, but at the same time it looks extraneous and nostalgic. This site gave me a lot in so many different ways: being here helped me so much to improve with my art, all the comments and the critiques were so important and useful for my "artistic growth" and I always treasured them in my heart, hoping to give a better product in return of such kindness and helpful advices.
Multiple reasons took me away from this site, mostly because for some unknown reason I wasn't able to post, which is really weird but now it all seems to go smoothly. Another reason was that somehow I wasn't feeling "right" about being here: all of you were so kind and full of compliments about my art, and yet I didn't feel that it was worth of your praises. I felt bad seeing how many artists were way better than me and still didn't get the attention they deserved. The stress of keeping my work on a decent level, on a perfect
level that I was actually unable to reach, made me more concerned and "close" about my art, like I was afraid it wasn't worth to be seen. I know, maybe for some of you it may look stupid, I myself looked at it that way, because hey! I am a free human being with equal rights as anyone else and can post whatever I want, and yet I couldn't think otherwise. But I eventually came to realize that if I, myself, am not satisfied with my work and don't believe in my skills, then nobody else will.
That said, I'm really glad I can finally write this post here; I don't know if this site will ever return to give me technical problems, as well as I don't know if I will ever be able again to consider this as my "home" like it was a long time ago, but I will try to overcome my feelings and post some more of my work.
I don't know how many people is still interested in my art and I can't blame those who don't, but I want to say thanks to those who still take their time to look on my gallery, it makes me really happy.
Thanks from the bottom of my heart for the support you guys gave me for so long and, hopefully, give me again in the future. And of course, sorry for my poor English, I should have at least tried to improve that OTL